I wrote down a list of all the ways it wasn't working for me because the times it was working were SO good. I remind myself I want peace and consistency, not a rollercoaster. I remind myself I played my part and wasn't my best self, while having compassion for the old beliefs and ways of that self. I know the ending was necessary AND I feel the pain like I've never experienced before. The pain of loss is more acute and intense than the daily ache of being unmet, that's the tricky part. The intensity will fade.
Thank you. This gave words to something I have wondered about in myself as I feel the pain softening. So helpful!
I wrote down a list of all the ways it wasn't working for me because the times it was working were SO good. I remind myself I want peace and consistency, not a rollercoaster. I remind myself I played my part and wasn't my best self, while having compassion for the old beliefs and ways of that self. I know the ending was necessary AND I feel the pain like I've never experienced before. The pain of loss is more acute and intense than the daily ache of being unmet, that's the tricky part. The intensity will fade.
So good. Thank you for helping me understand myself better!
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